The light in the dark side of mE

I really don’t know. 

It’s just that I felt that something will happen today —something that I dreaded for the past days, weeks or should I say, months.  But what was interesting about it is that I was quite prepared for it.  It was just the blow that freaked me out the most.  Nevertheless, just as what I had always believed, “life is like a surf, that’s why I’m giving myself away to the sea…” quoted from Luisa of Y Tu Mama Tambien. 

Now that the verdict was given, what else can I do? 

Continue life? 

Pursue my dreams…? 

Live life to the fullest. 

Everything ended and started with a contract.

This is such a bang in my nutshell.

And I mean it.

Really.

Know I havent slept a week at all
Since you’ve been gone
And my eyes are kinda tired
From crying all night long
Know I’ve never been too good at cooking just for one
It’s so lonely here without you darling
Come back home

‘Cause I’m half crazy
Feelin’ sorry for myself
Half crazy
Worried you’d find someone else to love

Know life hasnt been much fun at all
Since you’ve been gone
And my eyes being to feel
Each time I hear a sound
I spent every minute asking myself
What went wrong
Can’t we try to talk it over baby
Come back home

‘Cause I’m half crazy
Feelin’ sorry for myself
Half crazy
Worried you’d find someone else to love
But baby there is no-one else
Half crazy
For everything you saying
Half crazy
No one else could love you like I do

‘Cause I’m half crazy
Feelin’ sorry for myself
Half crazy
Worried you’d find someone else to love
But baby there is no-one else
Half crazy
For everything you saying
Half crazy
No one else could ever love you
No one else could ever be

Half crazy
Feeling sorry for myself
And I’m worried you’ll find someone else
Feeling sorry for myself
Half crazy

First heard this song in a bar at t.morato as sung by joshua himself, six months ago.  Last time i remember singing this to you, four days ago, past one in the morning, right after our fight.  I never called since then…